Yesterday's post updated.

I took a girl friend - between us we have at LEAST 5 black belts. We were more worried about what we'd find and not find than of what this kindly soul would do to us. My neighbour is a cop - he had the address and phone number of the family we were going to see, just in case.
95% of what I was upset at loosing is there and a bit more of other stuff. My grandma's hoop is there, her scissors, my scissors that I got on my 14th Christmas is there,,,my aunt' scissors and the ornament that she made me just before she died is gone as is almost all the completed works ( about 2 dozen or so ornaments) and 3 containers of flosses and threads. A good amount of the patrtially finished ornies are here- most of my patterns ( except the Leisure arts one and a hard cover book). Even my change purse filled with splenda is there...I am amazed, at the fact that this man who was also stolen from took the time to track down, several folks...to return stuff. Amazing.
Thanks for all the concern and support. It means a lot.

Stunned Speechless, but in a good way

while ago,my car was broken into. I asked everyone I knew to say a prayer for the return of my stuff.

I am going to ask that if you're the praying type, say another prayer please...I just got a call about the possibility of getting my stuff - or at least some of it back.
some guy tracked me down through one of those shoppers club cards, gave them HIS number and the called me, I called him he told me that his car had been stolen and was used to store all the stuff the person who stile his car jacked from other cars.

I go tomorrow at 7:30 to find what I get back

I tossed the fiddle.

It's in the trash. I give up. I told the SUB that I can't do rhythm, she decided to force it. And try the one and two and ...crap again> I told her. No three times, I told her it does not translate that it makes no sense that Vicki tried it, and she still pushed it. I told her to tell me what part of a second she wants the eighth notes and I'd figure it out, I told her that rhythm is my down fall and to work on technique and that the rhythm thing would come eventually.
And she pushed it.

Lessons started at 5pm - I was HOME by 5:10 pm after telling her that if this is what she wanted to do I would be better off without a lesson she said "Okay" and I walked out.
My violin is in the trash and I feel like I belong there with it.
Why do dreams die so hard? Why does this have to hurt so much.

Magic Lantern Show...Living History and Magic Mystery Tour Combined

I went tonight to a magic lantern show. It's a form of entertainment that predates tv by some 350 years, and is the precursor to movies. and tv. This one was the Victorian Christmas Show. I've also seen the Halloween Show. The lantern works on the same principals as a slide projector and old film projectors..the originals used lighted gas, 'modern" ones use lights. And the magic - the sounds- come from the audience in the form of singing, instruments, sound effects and such. It's fun. True fun for all ages.
My 2 year old niece loves it and tonight we had 90 year olds having a grand old time. If you want to truly experience a part of living history...pack up the car and head out and see them. It's fantastic.
I am already plotting to go again -even if it means a road trip.

Two Anniversaries Today, neither cause for celebration

In Chronological order for anyone who asks.


Dateline December 6th, 1917, Place Halifax Habour - Halifax Nova Scotia.
WWI is in full swing, And Halifax being an Atlantic port was in the "middle' of it all, It's a beautiful December Morn when the unthinkable happens Tow ships got their signal crossed and their intentions misread - the Mount Blanc and the Imo. Before that day ended more than 1,000 perished and 1,000 more would die later of their injuries. THe city of Halifax lay in ruins. The Blast heard clear to Cape Breton about 225 miles away.
You can find out more here...http://www.cbc.ca/halifaxexplosion/index.html


the second sad anniversary is the Montreal Massacre. Where in 14 women were line up against a Blackboard and shot at Montreal's Ecole Polytechnique - after the shooter let all the male students in that classroom go. Find out more here:
http://archives.cbc.ca/IDD-1-70-398/disasters_tragedies/montreal_massacre/


Scary shit - time we took the time to remember all the victims of violence whether from war or from Other sources it's time we grew out of violence. Against women, Against men, against each other,

Probably not what the 16 Days organizers want....sorry

On one of my favourite blogs,
Fetch Me My Axe, has a post about an online protest against Violence against women. For 16 days people all over the "blogosphere" are writing about Violence against women and how to end it/ help it's victims,ect. All well and good - I've been thinking about it for days in terms of my life, how I act and how others act towards me.
Oh, I have had my share of violence, I spent years being sexually abused by male relatives, I was raped by a therapist,and I've had my "share" of beatings.But you know when I think of the things that have been the most soul rending, it's the words that I recall. Words that no longer have any meaning for me. Call me a slut? I'll likely laugh. I lable myself a bitch, and other words, well, who cares what someone who would use them thinks - at least at this point.
But lately I've been seeing women being labled with these words -and worse - because they don't fall in line with the attitudes and life choices of others. It occured to me that it's really always been this way. I can recall being called a "slut" because I wouldn't date a guy, other girls were called that for having too many boyfriends - same with whore...you could act either way and still be called that so basically the word means "Woman who doesn't act the way the speaker wants her too." Fine and dandy. It also says way more about the speaker's state of mind than it does about the person being called that.
Same with Bitch or Cunt - really. Fastest way I have found to be called either is to stand up for myself and refuse to do behave as told. And let me tell you when you make life out of not dating, not having sex and not having children - you find yourself not behaving astold" an awful lot.
But there's other words too, "Breeder" "Child-hater" "Selfish" - for either having or not having kids, and so on.
Words we use to Slash and burn, causing wounds that last far longer than the bruises or broken bones coming from the violence that often accompanies them. Maybe it's time to stop worrying about how to end violence and time to start worrying about how we can change the words and atittudes that start it.
Violence ain't going away until we change the atittudes that cause us to lable those who make different choices for our bodies, or jobs, and our lives. First thing we all need to get over is ourselves.

I give up

It seems like hte internet has gone to hell lately. In a hand basket. 3 of the sites I post on have turned crazy. And me along with them.
On one we have a long time poster ranting about Americans who go to other countries and don't like it there - so htey vent on THEIR OWN BLOGS. Ya know what? On that SAME BOARD we have had philipinos who have moved to the US, rant about how things are sooooooo different from her country and that we'd do better to be more like that country. No American ( or anyone else) whine about it. We've had follks from India do the same thing. And no one said boo. Yet when a Yank is living somewhere they can't post, again ON THEIR ON DAMN BLOG with out someone going to a third party board and whining about it. And a goodly portion of the regulars I recognized backed this person about how evil Yanks are.
OK- you don't klike what someone is sayingon their own damn blog - stay hte fuck off it and DON'T READ IT! It's just that simple. Really.

On a second board we have a person who is a religious nutcase back - she's posted in the past about how the Holocast never happened. How Gays, Lesbians, ect need to be "reforned", don't deseve rights, How the disabled should not be treated and just left to die. How the Dali Lama has less "value" in GOd's eye than a Mass Murderer...and how Buddhists and all who don't beleive in HER version of God are going to hell. In short she's a hate monger sanctioned by her church. Great, and the rest of theposters are supposed to be tolerant - OF HER. ( what about HER being expected to be tolerant of others?)

On a third board - we have a poster activiely trying to cuase hurt, start board wars and the like. 95% of her are calculated to be hurtful and caause controversy. She's supposedly on Moderation where by the mods read her posts before allowing them through. OVer the weekend she posted about THe Childfree movement and basically proposed Eugenics with a twist. In her view parents should be licensed to have the "right" to have kids. And she posted a board and two blogs for folks to read at. The problem is that the two blogs are so "out there" even the most militant CF rant boards are up in arms over them and the board is specifically designed for folks with out kids - their rules say parents not allowed or some such! And the aadmins on this board "allowed" this? great.

THe parents on the third board are already bitching _ Well screw it I bitched back. they don't want a tread for the childfree on that board because "it's discriminatory" Yet it's ok to have three thread on parenting - nope those are not discriminatory to those without kids, not at all. Riiiight. I called 'em on their own fucking hypocracy.
Repeatedly.

Oh I called the OP on her crap too. but this comes up regualarly about how parents are discriminated against on that board when the whole fucking cahrectar of the damn board has changed to cater to parents and their kids. because we all know a band board is JUST the place for kiddums to be on the net and no one should ever express an opinion strongly or say anything that might upset the Children. Yeah, it's no goddamned wonder that the CF'ers on that board are getting sick of it. I know I am sick of the fucking internet.


I've turned comments off here. Just so you know.

Computer woes

Mine appears to be toast. IT won't boot, it won't repair and I can't install a damn thing. Sigh.
I may have to buy a new one. I am not sure when I'll be back on line with regularity.
Sigh.